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Chris Brown thinks the devil is “ruining” his life.
The 26-year-old singer, who believes close friends were responsible for holding his aunt at gunpoint while robbing his house in Los Angeles last Wednesday (15.07.15), is tired of being misunderstood and says most people in his situation “wouldn’t hesitate” to commit suicide.
The ‘Loyal’ hitmaker vented his frustration on Instagram today (21.07.15), writing: “When u tired of the f**king devil ruining your life and u hear God speak for the first time. No one knows what I deal with on a day to day. The average man wouldn’t hesitate to blow his f**king brains out but that’s the cowards way out… Most won’t understand the genius and beauty in change and learning and the people who have devilish intentions will win in the short term.”
Chris also claims he is desperately looking for “help and guidance,” so he can focus on his music career and raising his 13-month-old daughter, Royalty.
He wrote: “My soul will always be pure of heart. What’s on the surface always looks like one big party but inside there is a little boy looking for help and guidance. People say ‘be a man’. Yeah, that’s right but it doesn’t take away any pain you really go through.”
But the ‘Fine China’ singer insists he is cutting the bad influences out of his life.
He added: “I just wanna stay out the way and do music. Most importantly and great father. I don’t have any more patience for anything that will cause me to self destruct!!”